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bernie larsen inside outside

answer as?
looking through these eyes that never let me
feeling with the heart of brokeness
everything i thought that i believed in
(had me) reading words and pounding on
 my chest
sleeping all the while but never dreaming
chased what i had known was my plan
seeing the someone pointing and laughing
makes the tallest church turn to sand
running after peace i'm running faster
crawling with my legs and both my hands
kneeling so the stillness can recieve me
bringing the
answer as?
floated on my back out on the water
trying to see the other side of sky
drifting from motion of the current
the moving clouds i know are just a lie
darkness had surrounded all the meaning
stare at my reflection in the pond
 i can't come to terms with only being
momentary questions all gone
mother tries to quiet her baby
soldier tries to silence a life
the end they say is always a beginning
something starts to live as something dies

daddy gone
standing there comb and mirror
trying to live a life
never saw the pain and fear
if they exist keep them quite
left behind smoke and beer
were some things been gone wrong
maybe life does get clearer
more than fighting makes you strong
daddy gone
the smell of an old pickup truck
the strength of the back
didn't believe in bad luck
hard work gets you through that
in the rear view i could see his eyes
we would dream while he would drive
endless trees and headlights
the blessing of another night
sitting in that easy chair
staring at the miles
someone's racing somewhere
i can still see the smile

oh mother
oh mother don't you weep
close your eyes and sleep
oh mother don't you weep no more
that man   who told you
he would keep your heart
so safe so safe
held you   closely
in  his arms
and spoke your sister's name
it hurts me   to see him
take your love
and not understand
so as i close   the door
holding daddy's gun
he will feel
darkness from my hand
so i walk   slowly
ringing in my ears
and pray to god for this sin
silence   tells me
deep within
he will never lie again

i fall in love too fast
(b. larsen/m. anderson)
i fall in love too fast
like a moth drawn to the flame
no light that burns so bright can last
it always ends the same
i told myself this time
this time i'll take it slow
you know i still believe
oh that my heart should know
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if anyone pays the price - i do
if anyone made it worth the cost i paid this time
its you
oh but this loneliness - is proof
though i keep trying to deny - the truth
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i know you're not the one i should be waiting for
its hard to realize its time to close the door
it's taking me a while to see what any fool
would know
i fall in love too fast
and let go too slow
i'm standing in the rain
see my reflection in the glass
i see the one to blame
never learning from the past

-of freaks
holding on with my life really not inside
i know its not christ put me here to die
another night of nights open mouth he speaks
"its just an empty ride"only  nights to cheat
i don't know what's right
maybe its the world that keeps us from our soul
you can walk away  noone has to know
each of us are weak no one has the truth
just alot of freaks looking back at you
i don't know what's right
words enough alright & we can't pretend
this endless need will ever end
driven by shapes hidden in snow
hope we last a day pray then you go

help me
i was reaching out should have been reaching in
saw time end while i was waiting to begin
tried to teach when i had yet to learn
oh i yearned
i stood staring at a flame
waited and watched it burn again
spent a lifetime trying to get beyond sane
past the blame
oh the truth inside this memory
blinded eyes from ever knowing free
holds my body down while i scream please
help me
looking up from down on my knees
prayed for breath as i began to feel release
traded money for the absense of disease
and my needs
running hurt/screaming mute
earth's last flower being pulled up by the root
everything i thought i knew
i give to you

a life
down we walk deeper and deeper
close the box, close your eyes
touch a life, that never was ours
oh a life
lonely felt, it was ours
left too little, and blind
we see enough, walk back out of us
even though, there's dark
oh a life
steady light, casts shadows
much remains, yet so little
torn edges, worn heart
purity, isn't ours

i am waiting here
(b.l arsen/a smith)
i died from waiting here
i cried just waiting here
this time there is no fear
i'll wait, if you'll wait
the tides are crashing near
inside i'm waiting here
the hopelessness no longer clear
i'll wait, if you'll wait
please stay
when you love somebody
in an unconditional way
when it's right it's beauty
that's why i stay, wait for the day
i feel for you
and time won't change the truth
if i can just hold you
i'll wait if you wait
baby don't say that it's over
let the differences fall away
your eyes tell me to come closer
i need you, you need me too

love's a comin'
better get ready, love's a comin
better get ready, no use runnin'
love's a comin/love's a comin'
if you been down, get up
crawlin' around don't mean much
not the "type" ain't no such
all we need is one touch
if you been out, then get in
it's not your souls original sin
you can be more than just friends
and if we can't , let's pretend
if you been feeling so low
heart been beating, real slow
yes a river will flow
hold on tight don't let go